I planned to start writing this blog on Day 1 when I started, but it's actually taken a week to get to it. Just like with so many other things in my life these days. I used to reserve an afternoon to catch up on laundry and now it's an after thought before I leave in the morning or head to bed at night. And it's usually because someone has to have something clean the very next day.
I have to say that first night of carving out 5 minutes - that's my big starting point! - 5 minutes was the best 5 minutes of my day. I remembered how to breathe. I felt expansiveness instead of constricted. It was beautiful. And I think I actually meditated for about 7 - 8 minutes. This is going to be great.
Except that I decide to try to meditate at different times throughout the week. First thing in the morning after a quick run in the neighborhood. Too keyed up. Need to get the day started. Sitting at the airport at lunch. Nice, but too hot, so all I thought about was how it was too hot and that I was going to smell like 'outside' when I got back to work. Tried a couple of times at bedtime, in bed, head on pillow. Out like a light. I planned to meditate last night when I got ready for bed but couldn't settle in. I found myself very agitated about that.
So, I need to find a place that is my own. A place that I go where no one else is invited and knows they need to leave me alone if they know what's good for them! I probably won't get to that until this weekend. Until then, meditating in my car at lunch is working out ok although it's a waste of gas. I guess that depends on who you are asking.
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